I made a decision. That in itself is an accomplishment. I am a very back and forth sort of decider. I think things through so much that I make a decision and then change my mind. I have decided to stop doing that.
I decided to stop waiting to be ready and just do stuff. If you wait, you many not get the chance to do the thing.
I wondered why I hadn’t done the thing before now? I heard it in my head plain as I hear my kids playing and my dog barking.
What am I scared of? EVERYTHING….here is a short list…
I am scared that thing I wrote isn’t my idea. What if I read it in passing somewhere and I stole it without even knowing it?
I am scared that it has been done so many times no one wants to read it again.
I am scared that I will fail again at this thing called marriage.
I am scared that I will always be overweight.
I am scared that the friends who have stopped talking to me did so because they really didn’t like me to begin with.
I am scared that someone will figure out I am just winging it and the whole thing goes to hell in a breadbasket.
Well, today I said, screw it. I sat down and did a thing.
What did I do?
I sat down and told myself that I am an amazing writer. There is nothing new under the sun and that is not my fault. I am a good wife. I am a true friend. People like me. I am beautiful and I don’t give a damn what anyone thinks.
“In this life, people will love you and people will hate you and none of that will have anything to do with you.” (Abraham Hicks)
Do you hear that self?
There…I did it.
Believe in yourself.